I haven't written in some time. I doubt that anyone reads this thing anymore. That makes it almost better, and a little easier to write what I am really feeling.

It's as if my life is a constant count-down. Hey, at least I have somethings to look forward to? I wonder how people that work 9-5 jobs ALL year make it through the year. I guess they must really like what they do, or maybe they are just settled into their routines. This past week I've been thinking more and more about what I WANT to do with my life. I don't want to have this constant countdown going on. More and more I feel that I need to live life with a bit more adventure and spontenaeity. I've spent this past week behind a computer screen, watching tv and movies, and hardly experiencing all that life in NYC has to offer. More and more, I don't think that I am a teacher.

This scares me.